....The Failure,,,

(NOTE, this crap was written 3 years ago..)

..I dont where to start... After these months.. After timeless hurts... everlasting agony.. no one seems to understand me... I thought this would be easy,,

But iam only human,, born to make mistakes... I just Now become a

Failure..

these papers iam holding and writing on.. full of broken, hopless, jealosy, confusions, frustrations,guilts, and clutching of my emotions are my deathbeds...

this pen iam writing is my tears...

Yet.. the problems i cant take this anymore.. I feel so weak.. It just started when i realized iam loving someone.. all these years.. all these chances have taken.. i just cant face the truth that ... destiny destroys me.. time forsakes me.. hope kills me...

I have no chance on her.. WE COULD NEVER BE... she just take me as a friend,,, a friend that she will never understand.. but reality is right... she likes someone.. and i know someone is better than me.. I must confess i dont possess talents, looks, riches.. but there is still i can offer my HEART... my love... my self.. ready to give up... but will she take it?... i think not.. and million of these broken glass... and she will not...

and now... even worser,,, SHES million miles away,,, and She has someone owns her.. and even worser... she just forget about me.. like i never existed in this world---- full of broken promises. inevitible obstacles..

Hope she can see how o feels without her,,, if i had only another time.. ill spend it with her,, ill show her i truly need her..........